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My Wednesday

I didn’t feel like going to work today. Fortunately, a potential crisis unfolded which kept me away from the office.

I awoke at 5 a.m. with a tight chest, and a slightly reduced ability to breathe. I tried to sleep a bit more, found it difficult, eventually drifted off, had a touch of sleep paralysis, then woke again at 8 a.m.

I got up, Googled my symptoms, which turned out to match those of a heart attack. So, I showered and took the train to the hospital.

Six hours, a huge blood test, a chest xray, and an EKG later, nothing appears to be wrong w/ me. It’s either indigestion or a chest strain of some sort (insert joke here).

The guy taking my blood asked what I was reading. He found it ever so curious, said the Bible was true, that Satan lies, etc. I didn’t feel like arguing w/ him, but felt like saying, “The Bible’s irrelevant. You think it’s a valid work, I do not. We’re not coming from the same place philosophically”. Instead, I joked for him not to hurt me w/ his needle.

On the bright side, I’m not dead. And I finished my book.

In other news, I’m soon going to have to make a decision regarding my crush. I waffle between telling him how I feel and…not. I should because it’s proactive and will put me out of my misery and is brave. I really, really don’t wanna ’cause I like him a lot and have for many months and I’m ugly and don’t have the right to go after what I want. You can see my dilemma.

I anticipate being quite depressed in ten days.

Oh, and I love this blog layout. And, groovily, it was co-created by Canadian musician Matthew Good.

Here is something that will cheer you up (or atleast make it seem like someone else has it worse.) The picture you took of the soiled linen plastic bag? We get about three or four loads a year from the hospital here. They get baled. They are always dewey with some sort of liquid. We have to handle them a lot and they smell like pee. We are as silent as the dead when we do it so that our mouths are always closed and nothing can get accidentally swallowed.

It is a good thing that saving the planet isn’t up to me individually.

Silent as the dead. Thanks. That did cheer me up.

You are NOT ugly and you DO have a right to go after what you want.

mommikey