The weekend
Hello, all.
So, Nancy wrote that she finds this new layout harder to navigate. Anyone else? I like it. A lot. Might be my favorite layout ever, in fact.
I rented some vids last night, but the Penn & Teller one was the wrong one, and the first disc of season three of Deadwood was scratched so wouldn’t play. I ended up watching my own copy of Raising Arizona instead.
I’m constantly amazed how much better life is now that I have a job I like. I wake up looking forward to the day, I have enthusiasm, confidence, hope. There are lots of things irritating me about the job right now, but I still love it. I’m even going in today (as there’s a huge bunch of filing and organizing I need to do). There are still aspects of life I’m unhappy with, but most things seem, just, better now. Bearable, surmountable.
In that vein, I’ve finally come to the point where I can let go, or stop clinging, to my latest crush. I still like him, but am no longer going to make myself miserable by wishing and hoping for something that isn’t going to happen. God, I feel better. But it’s something I had to come to on my own. I knew I shouldn’t cling right from the start, but was stubborn and did it anyway. It’s hard not to hope and get invested, I guess.
I want to start doing more things. Now that I’m happier and have more energy, there’s less excuse to put these things off. Here’s my list:
- practice guitar, maybe take proper lessons
- take singing lessons
- write stories
- read more
- put more effort into learning to crochet
- exercise every day (or so)
- meditate twice a day
It’s interesting w/ the zazen. I haven’t done it for a bit. I really notice the nature of habit. Once I start meditating, it’s easier to keep on w/ it. But once I stop, it’s so hard to start. An elementary conclusion, yes, but I’ve never seen it so clearly before. My house can be clean, I can have time, but still won’t. Silly.
I’m going to visit Still Trying and family next weekend. I’m excited. I’ve never even met her youngest daughter.
I’ve decided to try to grow out my hair. We’ll see how it goes. I like how it’s looking so far, kinda Joanna Lumley in her New Avengers days.
The weather here’s beautiful. How is it where you are?